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Happy New Year 2015! Posted on 4th Jan 2015, 1:11pm by admin

Goodbye 2014; what a year it has been.

I wake up post float (the graveyard shift that runs for 4 days a week – yes! very unfortunate/fortunate to have it run past the NYE/NY period, sigh) and my palms arms shoulders are aching.

strange, waking up bleary – I don’t remember going for pilates anytime soon. I shift my body weight and my whole body aches again heh

Then I remember – My first resus. That’s what I spent my NY doing 5 minutes into shift and I remember the nurses coming to us (thank God for my half shift friend who was still handing over to me that same patient).

“Dr, your patient desaturated.”

We looked to each other and our hearts sank.

So we go through the motion, what we learnt and relearnt again from the books, but you know it never is the case when it is actually happening, orders are shouted across a human being, families shocked into oblivion having to wait outside the curtains while behind the curtains a whole flurry of activity is happening – IV lines are being set, blood is being collected, patient being bagged then intubated and then when the pulse goes, we jump ON the patient and literally try to pump their lives back.

I remember feeling so helpless and scared.

You would think after a year or so and after ED you would have gotten used to this sort of rush, but it didn’t happen to me. All I wanted was for this patient to just come back again and I didn’t know how to make it happen fast enough.

I don’t even remember praying (think I wasn’t even breathing) maybe at the back of my mind as I was trying to set a plug or giving adrenaline I told God,please help this guy, please help me help him, or somewhat along the lines of begging for some grace and some courage and some mercy.

For NYE/NY, my patient turned hypotensive at 1155pm, we were on our way up to the rooftop to catch fireworks but turned around so that my HO could attend to the patient and because she didn’t want to crossover to the NY alone, I went with her.

Shortly after giving some runs of fluids, she passed away, so the first thing I did on 2015 was to sign up a patient.

I don’t think it is a good sign for the year to come…

I remember what my reg told me just that morning itself about how every time we do sign up a patient to take a good look at their IC, to see the actual person – they so often look so different from the patient that lies in front of you.

As many were celebrating that night, fireworks, good food and in the company of loved ones, this family lost their mother, grandmother and sister. Such a stark contrast as to what the rest of the world was doing on NYE.

I don’t know what I should hope for actually, should I want to be used to it then? To be used to resus – the whole motion of it, to be so used to it that I can be calm and collected and therefore more efficient that way. Or should I hope not to be used to this, so that I don’t forget the person in bed, with lines and tubes from every corner. I really don’t know.

Perhaps, my NY 2015 resolution would be finding a balance between the two.

Happy 2015 everyone, may we continue to work hard, play hard and love even harder xx

~ by Jennifer G

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2009 Nov: Batam: Beyond A Mission
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